I've been divorced for awhile now ( 5 or 6 years ) and I honestly have to say I was that rare person who was happy, and I mean freaking happy, when it was final. Like I wanted to throw a party happy, ( my Mom said it was tacky) and I know a lot of people don't feel that way, so I don't know what to say, but know this time is about you. What you want, your interests, what makes you happy. Now is the time to explore anything and everything that has ever interested you and only you and make decisions that affect primarily you, without having to discuss it with anyone else. Paint your bedroom purple with green polka dots, dance on tables, eat what you like for dinner every night. Get to know you, and enjoy being with just you. And your Newfies and your grandbaby!