jordansmom
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At 6:30 pm April 18th I had to make the decision to euthanize Jordan. It wasn't a decision that came easy but his heart was week and the internist gave him a slim chance of surviving surgery to remove his spleen. An ultrasound showed the mass involvement and metastasis to his liver, stage 3. That morning Jordan was fine. Dropped him at the vets clinic for his bath at 10, by 3 we are seeing a cardiologist and internist. By 6 my husband and I are struggling with the decision. It all happened so fast, I was barely holding it together. I wanted to take him home to euthanize but was afraid that he wouldn't make it, he had already collapsed in the clinic. They had to stabilize him just so my husband could arrive in time.
I could see he was in distress, had never seen him like this. I didn't want him to suffer anymore. (Long history of other non life threatening health problems) He was upset with me for being in this strange place, gave me the newfy cold shoulder. But I kept talking to him and stroking him and he finally relaxed and closed his eyes. So with foreheads touching and his head in my hands I gave the dr the go ahead.
With as much hugs and kisses that I gave Jordan over his life, it just doesn't seem like enough. He was my first newf and was probably the most stoic, kindest gentlest dog I have ever known. His primary vet said Jordan was stoic because he didnt want me to worry about him. That was such a profound statement, I never knew.
It all happened so fast I don't know what to do with myself except pray and cry.
I could see he was in distress, had never seen him like this. I didn't want him to suffer anymore. (Long history of other non life threatening health problems) He was upset with me for being in this strange place, gave me the newfy cold shoulder. But I kept talking to him and stroking him and he finally relaxed and closed his eyes. So with foreheads touching and his head in my hands I gave the dr the go ahead.
With as much hugs and kisses that I gave Jordan over his life, it just doesn't seem like enough. He was my first newf and was probably the most stoic, kindest gentlest dog I have ever known. His primary vet said Jordan was stoic because he didnt want me to worry about him. That was such a profound statement, I never knew.
It all happened so fast I don't know what to do with myself except pray and cry.
