noblenewf
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I know I haven't been around much lately. It's been really difficult for me to visit the forum- the reminders are still just painful since losing my boy in May. I know it takes time to heal...and time does heal. But I'll never forget! Which brings me to my next topic... it's a tough one for me...so please bear with me and be gentle.
I'll recap a little for those of you that maybe don't know my situation. In May I lost my beloved Newf, Gabe, to bloat. It was the most horrifying, terrifying experience of my life. He died on the operating table...and I occasionally still see images of those last moments. It was so devastating...and I don't think I will ever be able to forget. The wonderful memories I have of him are now becoming the ones I remember most often...but I still have occasional flashbacks...and the entire experience was beyond traumatic. I know I'm not the only one who has lost a Newf in this manner...so I'm certainly not asking for pity or sympathy (although all of you were MORE than supportive during it all).
The time has come where I'm getting the itch to bring another Newf into my life. Not immediately...but in the near future. I have lots of options...and I know no other breed will do...but I must be completely honest and share that I am TERRIFIED. Terrified of bloat...terrified of more cruciate injuries...but those I can deal with. I am not sure if I can survive another experience with bloat. I'm not sure if I'm being irrational in thought here...but it's a real fear...and I'm having a hard time overcoming it. Has anyone who's lost a Newf (for any reason...suddenly or not...) ever felt like they are not sure they can endure the pain again? The experience was so horrible for me...and so sudden...and I did everything to prevent it from happening...and it STILL happened. I just don't know if I need more time...or if I'm bonkers...or if my fears are justified. Murphy and I miss our boy...and I'm afraid no other breed of dog will do...
Has anyone ever felt like this?
Thank you in advance to those of you that take the time to reply.
Jess
I'll recap a little for those of you that maybe don't know my situation. In May I lost my beloved Newf, Gabe, to bloat. It was the most horrifying, terrifying experience of my life. He died on the operating table...and I occasionally still see images of those last moments. It was so devastating...and I don't think I will ever be able to forget. The wonderful memories I have of him are now becoming the ones I remember most often...but I still have occasional flashbacks...and the entire experience was beyond traumatic. I know I'm not the only one who has lost a Newf in this manner...so I'm certainly not asking for pity or sympathy (although all of you were MORE than supportive during it all).
The time has come where I'm getting the itch to bring another Newf into my life. Not immediately...but in the near future. I have lots of options...and I know no other breed will do...but I must be completely honest and share that I am TERRIFIED. Terrified of bloat...terrified of more cruciate injuries...but those I can deal with. I am not sure if I can survive another experience with bloat. I'm not sure if I'm being irrational in thought here...but it's a real fear...and I'm having a hard time overcoming it. Has anyone who's lost a Newf (for any reason...suddenly or not...) ever felt like they are not sure they can endure the pain again? The experience was so horrible for me...and so sudden...and I did everything to prevent it from happening...and it STILL happened. I just don't know if I need more time...or if I'm bonkers...or if my fears are justified. Murphy and I miss our boy...and I'm afraid no other breed of dog will do...
Has anyone ever felt like this?
Thank you in advance to those of you that take the time to reply.
Jess