with sad news, I come to you to announce that Old Max has died.
I have not had my computer for a couple weeks and could not get here to tell you this until now. He died the weekend of the 12th. He died of heartworm. The vet misdiagnosed him, but I stand beside him. He has been our vet for over 40 years. He thought out his diagnoses carefully. Max did come up pos for heartworm but because Max had a strong heart, and was active and not lethargic, he believed he had had HW earlier in his life, gotten treated for it, and would always test pos for it now. He attributed his slight cough to kennel cough and began to treat him for it.
And indeed, Max did prosper. He got washed and groomed..years of outdoor living was washed away. He looked so handsome! He got toys of his own...a squeaky cow and a rope to play tug a war..which he did, with my daughter. He took little walks with me, oh so happy, his tail wagging, his face looking up at me as we walked. As tho he were saying "isnt this fun???!!!"
the last night, I went downstairs to check on him and say good nite. I brought him two slices of swiss cheese, which I had never given him before. OH! He loved it! I kissed his head and told him tomorrow he would be coming up to the main floor, he could finally come out of quarantine.
The next morning, Max didnt come to the steps. I walked down the stairs and there was my sweet old man, laying in a pool of blood. The vet said his heart had been damaged after all. He couldnt believe it. He said Max's heart sounded so good!
My vet cremated Max for me. I have washed his comforter and dried it and folded it away, along with his water and feed bowls, and his toys. I had thought they would come in handy if I would ever foster or rescue again...
but I dont know if I will. I feel like I failed him. I feel like I could have, should have done something else, questioned more, etc. Hindsight is 20/20 and I do know I did the best I could..I just wish it had been enough...
god rest the old boy. He died happy, with food in his belly, a family who loved him and a better idea of the kindness of humans as he crossed the bridge.