Thanks everyone for your thoughts. Things are not easy here, and I don't think they will get much better, soon.
It's been a hard few days. Over the weekend I had to drive my elderly parents 3 hours to an 80th birthday party for my aunt and uncle. My mother, bless her, could not remember that we had lost Mowgli, and could not figure out why she could not get me into a good mood. At least all my family members are dog people, so they could aprreciate how I was feeling. Then on the way back from the party, a deer crossed the road in front of me, and was struck by the oncoming car. I just kept driving since I knew there was nothing I could do, nor did I want to see the ramifications.
Then....yesterday, coming home, I had to stop short, and was struck in the rear by a thunk, a Harley Davidson motorcycle. The driver dumped the bike and walked away, but all I could think was "splat".
Hopefully all the tragedies are over in my house for a while, and we can try to get back to normal. This loss is so much harder than I ever imagined, probably because to find me you always looked for Mowgli. There is no thump...thump of his tail on the wall when you called his name. He was a tail wagger... take out any drink on the table with that tail....
We all seem to be coping. Mudji keeps looking for him. Last night he laid down on the floor where he always did when he went to lick Mowgli's jowls, and this morning, he came upstairs and was licking the floor where Mowgli laid. DH said that Angus spent the prior night sleeping in Mowgli's spot.
I truely thank you all for your thoughts. It's nice to have a place to come that appreciates how we feel about our newfs.
hannah
with 2 four legged, 1 two legged, and 2 boys who've crossed rainbow bridge, Murphy, 1964, and Mowgli, June 2003.