I feel broken :(

[DAWNMERIE]

I knew the day would come and I've dreaded it for the past year or two. Now she's gone I just feel broken. Don't get me wrong, the good thing is life has taken a turn for the crazy right now (and I do mean crazy) but you see my saying under my avatar? We had a wedding to go to on Sat & they used the song, Marry Me by Train and that's the first part of the song. I fell in love with the saying back then "Forever could never be long enough for me to feel like I've had long enough with you" I started to ball when the song started to play, thank God everyone thought I was crying for their happiness but I was dying inside, I miss her so much!!!!! Yes, Zeke is still doing well but apart of me is just gone

 

[Angela]

:hugs:
I think we all know those moments. They say in time it gets easier but I'm not really sure that is the case.

 

[DAWNMERIE]

I'm soooo mad about everything. I hate people Angela. If I told you what's been going on for the last 3 months you wouldn't believe me. I've really lost my faith in human kindness and goodness and loosing her on top of it, has just broken me. I wanted to swim away and Vin told me, "Just keep swimming" bet he regrets now! When I get through some of this, I'm gonna tear into people with a true hatred that they deserve.

 

[mcme]

I’m so sorry, Dawn. It is so hard.

 

[victoria1140]

Time makes it easier to accept but the hurts still there.

Big hugs as it's such a shitty time and l hope things improve for you

 

[DAWNMERIE]

What's really sad, is most people jump into getting a dog like buying a new shirt. I waited for the right timing in my life and I longed for that love once again in my life. I wanted to be able to give my dogs love and attention their whole life through. I looked forward to caring for my geriatric dogs, and showing them the love and caring they deserved.


I feel Myra's last month I couldn't be there the way I wanted to, and that infuriates me. To have that time stolen from us because people walk around with blinders on, because people can't take responsibility and people can't do their jobs and because people don't have 5 minutes to show some love, humanity and compassion when needed.



When I explode I'm gonna call out every single person that didn't help, didn't care, gave me a hard time and made me feel like I was doing something wrong by helping. I've come to the conclusion that it matters and they all need to know how wrong they are, how incompetent and how cruel they are.


I will not let this go and there is never getting over something like this, it needs to be fixed and corrected and when I'm up to that task, and pulled myself together just

watch me go!

 

[Angela]

Are these people who don't have pets? I am sure you and Vin did your utmost for Myra and his tribute to her was the most caring thing I have ever read.
Again, I am so sorry people are hurting you.

 

[DAWNMERIE]

I think it’s this neighborhood, I think it’s this town, I think it’s this state, I think it’s everyone’s attitude (including my own) I think I need to move to the woods. We did do our best, but I felt like I short changed her, my vet dis-agrees with me but nothing can change the past. I will move forward with a vengeance to right all the wrongs that have occurred.

 

[mcme]

I don’t know exactly what you’re referring to, Dawn, but after any loss it’s normal to look back and think you could have done things differently. It was always clear from your posts how much you loved Myra. I’m sure you did the very best you could for her. And that’s all any of us can do, is to do our best in that moment. I hope you find peace in that. Mary

 

[Newfobsessed]

I know the pain you have and are going through. It will take a long time until it lessens. But what the others have told you is true...you did everything you could for Myra. She knew it, everyone knows it. Give yourself some peace in knowing that. My heart goes out to you.

 

[NinaA]

So very sorry. This has happened to many of us. Contrary to what you may hear, you never recover, you always miss them terribly, but you learn to handle it. Peace to you.

 

[R Taft]

Its never long enough.....I am so sorry