I am so sorry. This is just incredibly difficult. You remember the feel of her precious fur in your hands and on your cheek, she remembers the unconditional love and security you gave her as you just were "with" her at all times in body and in spirit during her stay here with us. In my beliefs, she is well, healthy, watching over you, and you will see her again. God bless you with peace in this, and again, I am so sorry.