Life Without A Newf

[teahcrew]

she has been gone for too long. Each day is too long. I still tear up when I think of her, like now. She filled not just my days but my heart and soul as well. My chihuahua has taken on her stuffies and appallingly, he has gutted her favorite. I try very hard not to ruin his joy with my need to preserve her life. He is sweet, but not a newf. (he is my fiance's pup)

My heart aches for "that look"..the look a newf gives you when they bend their head back and look up at you to reassure themselves you are near.

I miss a yard full of brown spots and huge piles. I cant believe I use to bitch about it....

I miss the drool streaks on my walls. I find hers every now and then and smile. My baby was here. I cant bear to remove them when I find them..

My clothes have no fur on them. Well, chi hair isnt fur. Its like whats left over when you get a hair cut. I want that long black and white hair clinging to every thread of my existance...

My floors are no longer wet. There is no one to lay their head in the water dish...nor place their paws in it when they drink, nor turn their heads and drool all over the linoleum as they look at me to thank me for such fresh water...

my back no longer hurts from carrying in huge bags of dog food and a hundred cans of canned food...

my garden is not the same without a newf laying in the middle of it...

my car's windows are streakless...on the inside...I can see out of them...its horrible...

I need a newf soon....my life is not the same....

 

[charlieinnj]

Everything you say is so very true! How long has she been gone?

 

[teahcrew]

Forever.

Just since March...

 

[4ondafloor]

This breaks my heart... I'm so so sorry.

 

[TerriW]

Heart breaking here too. You are so right. Why do we complain about the signs of a Newfie at home?? Hair, fur, drool, what do they matter???

 

[sara722003]

I understand. I completely understand.

After I lost my first Newf after 10 years almost 40 years ago, I was stunned to see Newfs at dog shows that didn't 'light up' when they saw me. I understood at that moment, that while they "look like our dog", they certainly aren't. Broke my heart, but I waited almost 20 years to bring another into my house. Knew full well what I'd need to cope, and didn't feel like I could for another many years later. But what a JOY they are!

 

[blaue_augen]

Hugs from someone who doesn't know newf joy yet, but I can tell from you posts that it must be wonderful. I'm sorry for your loss.

 

[teahcrew]

thank you all for understanding and commenting. Today was just harder than usual. I really need another newf in my life....

 

[Diana]

I know exactly how you feel and am sorry you are feeling this heartache. This really struck a chord with me - especially the part about the bitching...I used to curse to myself every week when I scrubbed the hardened drool off the walls, changed the slimy water about 100 times a day, and my lawn - it was nonexistent. But I would trade all that in a heartbeat to have my Teddy back. Riley misses him so much too - has turned into a velcro dog and is very subdued. He cries if I go to the bathroom and don't let him in with me, isn't full of spunk and mischief like he used to be and I really miss that.

 

[Vicster]

That was beautiful. We lost our first Newf on Christmas this past year. It's stil quite fresh. I refuse to clean the walls. Her bowl is still on the kitchen counter. We have been blessed with a new puppy. It relieves much of the pain. But he is not she. Never will be. Thank you for posting

 

[teahcrew]

Boy, dont I know your feelings! I was counting out the dogs I have had in the past 2 decades...most of them senior adopts, only three were from puppies*...

Story, newf, passed away at almost 14 years of age
Max, sad little newf mix, passed away at age 13+
Joey, newf, passed away at age 11
Hera, keshound, passed away at age 12
Jasmine, newf, passed away at age 12
Bailey, newf mix, passed away at age 9
Tori, chow/lab mix, passed away at age 14*
Kali, newf, age 11, still alive but with an ex who loves her*
Sister, collie/pyr mix, passed away at age 14
and sweet sweet Bella, died too young from epilepsy, at the age of 2*

my sweet dogs come to me and stay forever....

 

[Henrys Mom]

I understand. When we lost Henry, my house was never so quiet. It felt so empty every time we came in. I would look at his spot a million times a day expecting to see him. We filled our void rather quickly. Now we have Mason who has been so much fun. Still miss Henry every day, but glad we have Mason! I hope you get another Newfie soon.

 

[teahcrew]

every newf I have had has been so distinctly different. yet, the same newfie loveliness continues in each one. Not a single one was adopted hoping they would replace the last. I have said this before about Bella, my first newf. She is the one who transcended me from being a pet owner to a dog lover. The love she gave me opened my heart up so wide that it has remained full, full enough for "one more" each and every time...

 

[mulenag]

I understand the emptiness you feel. We only lasted a month without a Newf. The wait for a pup was more than my heart could handle at the time. I am so happy we have Phoebe now. Whatever Newf ends up in your home will surely be lucky to have that special place in your heart.

 

[BoundlessNewfs]

Our Lucy has been gone since June 3rd. She was my heart and soul dog. We still have two other newfs, Maggie and Brenna. While I love them, I've never had the same connection with them, that Lucy and I shared.

I hope you find your next newf soon. There are lots of them in rescue right now, if you're thinking of an adult. If you're looking for a pup, I hope you find a great breeder to get that next best buddy from.

 

[DAWNMERIE]

They always come to you at just the right time, they always fill that special place in your heart. I wish for you to find the one whose dreaming of you tonight!

 

[Erika]

awwwww hugs and angels to ya,,,,,we lost our senior newf this past April........what you describe is felt by many here this yr. Im so sorry your heart is so heavy. have ya thought about another newfie to love, one from rescue, all my 5 are/were rescue/adopted. Ya need fresh drool marks and newfie eyes to grace you. Oh and yes the big piles, we call them yard muffins. Everyone should have them in natures bakery.lol. As I read your post I could feel all us NNers putting our arms around you. my heart ache for and with you. how old was your newfie luv, can you share some pics with us.

 

[teahcrew]

how sweet all of you are! I can feel those arms around me, too, Erika! I would love to adopt an older newf. I am not capable of doing a baby..lol. I love my seniors. Every single moment i have with them, is a moment I would never do without!

this thread has made me feel better today. I just was missing her so badly....

 

[KodysGrandma]

I lasted 6 months saying no to another. Felt like we were a little old to take on another. Then I couldn't stand it any more and very shortly we found our Thunder as a rehome. He's Kody's successor, not a replacement. He's not the same dog but he gives the same love. I hope your heart is full again soon.

 

[Erika]

how sweet all of you are! I can feel those arms around me, too, Erika! I would love to adopt an older newf. I am not capable of doing a baby..lol. I love my seniors. Every single moment i have with them, is a moment I would never do without!

this thread has made me feel better today. I just was missing her so badly....

I totally agree....we have 2 seniors now and 2 teenagers.....wohoooo what a crazy combo but fun.......seniors rock!!!!!:icon_bb: