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camel24j

New member
books are good for other people but not one with an addictive personality. im making my self sick so i have to stay away from the comp for a while if i can. i have been shaky for 3 days now and have not ate enough to say so. i dont know if i can help myself but im going to try.

it hard to admit that you can get addicted to any thing so badly it bad for you.

sorry about spelling but i cant see to strait right now i have not sleep or ate enough to say so. wish me luck. im so weak im actually afraid ill try to check in tomorrow but no promises because i think i need to stay away from the comp till feel i better.

no one in that lives with me can help me becuse i would bite there heads off with out thinking about it. this is worse than drugs.

i feel weak in many ways right now expecly but telling all of you but you all are so nice.
 

camel24j

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hey would anyone know if there are any mental problems that could cause someone to get obsessed with stuff. i think i have something but I'm no doc lol i dont know if i can explain it but i always knew i was different compulsive to the extreme in a way. at this point i am almost ready to have myself committed.

I'm feeling a little better after i ate something but not to much.
 

R Taft

Active member
Take care of yourself and maybe go and see someone who knows more. There are many compulsive disorders that, but only an experienced person could tell.....Ronnie
 

victoria1140

Active member
ocd Malc is obssessed with cleanliness, take some time out , lead a normal life and set two alarm clocks so even when you get into something the second alarm clock is the signal to stop, walk around and eat something
 

KS Newf

New member
Yes, take care of your physical needs, rest, and Victoria's alarm clock idea is wonderful. Sometimes when I obsess it is to avoid thinking about other areas of my life. Talk it out with a professional. The talking therapy really does help. We care very much for you, Jennifer, and your NN family is here for you.
 
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camel24j

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I'm still not doing to good staying away. i cant afford to see anyone. this is why i normally avoid books lol even in high school i would have to read the whole book before i could do anything else.

when i read the others books i only had gotten a few at a time so i could rest in between.
 

ina/puusty

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Medical help..there will be a place for help..but must share your concerns..with others who KNOW you! How about the extended family..an Auntie I believe..you talked about meeting some months ago..for a few visits? Call the local information line at the nearest hospital or clinic...and they will give you a number or two for referring your call. Mental health..must be watched over just needful as for colds and such..you must..Reach Out. If you cannot bring yourself to call first..simply walk to the nearest clinic/hosp. and tell them you are fearing a problem..and someone on their staff will see you for at least a quick , proff. once-over..and then..give guidance as to how to proceed. Hugs and good luck today and forward, ina n HB n Kesa
 

camel24j

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its not exactly the Internet i have books on the comp that i cant stop reading it sounds stupid but it true. when i do take a break all i can think about is finishing the books even when i need sleep my mind is only on the stories and the books. i can do with out the comp its the books that are on them. even when i buy books i normally only get a few so that i mite only be lost in them for a few days i go nuts when they i get done with them like i need more to read but with out anything new to read i can manage to come back to being normal kinda.

i have never been normal but it not consistent enough to really pinpoint what it is. like touching things with out even thinking about it but when i try to control it i feel like i will loss my mind but i have only lost my self a few times. it like a battle of my will. i dont know how to explain it another way. just last week i would end up in the kitchen about 30 times not knowing why i needed to be there or what i wanted just had to be in the kitchen then i would go back to what i was doing it happen for a whole week before i got myself to stop.

i guess what i mean to say is i would go to the kitchen but not sure why i would just stand there and look around i was not hungry or thirsty didn't need any thing so i would leave than about 20 minutes later i would do it again. but it hard to explain what made me do it because i dont know. i am able to act normal only by will alone but when that fades i go into depression and loss my mind that way it better than the other way.. i know you all know i need help but i also have trust problems i dont even trust my parents. i trust Gary more than anyone i have ever known in my life but not enough to tell him how crazy i really am. and when i have hinted at things he shrugs it off.
 

camel24j

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see i only have a few family members that know me but not enough most look at me like i am a pet tiger that could kill in a moment. but to be far they have seen me in my worst moments and they linger on them if they looked harder they would see how much caring and trust worthy i can really be.
 

SarahZ

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Hi Jennifer. I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry you're going through a difficult time right now. I think that its good that you are recognizing when you are having these types of episodes. Maybe you could keep a journal of all that you are going though, and then after a while, when you feel ready, you could go to someone for some help, and you could give them your journal. Maybe that would ease you into opening yourself up.
Anyway, just want you to know that I'm thinking of you. Hope you feel better soon.
 

victoria1140

Active member
hi Jennifer it definetly sounds like a type of ocd you have, dont worry even David Beckham sufffers from it so its quite common. If you cant talk to someone face to face see if there is a self helpline with some info on. With ocd its very normal to be wary of people especially if they dont recognise it as a problem . I too find it difficult to put a good book down but the main thing is you recognise you have a problem. thats always the first step to getting anything fixed. the journal is a good idea, also note down weather conditions, eating times are you eating healthily or junk at the time as certain things may cause worse episodes than others. big hugs
 

BLCOLE

Active member
I happen to have family members with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Having said that, I think Ina is giving EXCELLENT advice. You need to see a medical professional...
 

Murphy

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I happen to have family members with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Having said that, I think Ina is giving EXCELLENT advice. You need to see a medical professional...
I agree with Ina and Brad.. Jen.. while it is good that you feel you can share your thoughts and fears with us, we are not professionals and that is what you need. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Wouldn't you welcome the opportunity to feel better?? There are medications that can help you but you have to take that step and follow throuigh with it. Do it today.. Use some of that will power that you know you have to go to a emergency crisis unit. There is help for you but you have to do this yourself !!!
 

NinaA

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I also agree. This is something that only a professional can help with. Check out local social services, as there may be help available at no cost to you through a local agency. But, you do need to talk to someone who is trained. No matter what you significant other may think, if you think you need help - you need help, and that's the first step to getting better.
 

Tricia2

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I don't think it matters so much what the label is given for a disorder that interferring with your life as much as it is to treat it adequately. There are chemical imbalances in your brain that contribute to behaviors that need to be brought back into balance so that you have a good quality of life. I think you know this and you know that this recent episode is indicating you need to get a tune up or a med tweak. Don't worry about what others might think or label they give it. It's as much a disorder as diabetes or high blood pressure and it needs to be managed as such without shame.
 

twright1231

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I don't think it matters so much what the label is given for a disorder that interferring with your life as much as it is to treat it adequately. There are chemical imbalances in your brain that contribute to behaviors that need to be brought back into balance so that you have a good quality of life. I think you know this and you know that this recent episode is indicating you need to get a tune up or a med tweak. Don't worry about what others might think or label they give it. It's as much a disorder as diabetes or high blood pressure and it needs to be managed as such without shame.
Tricia is right, it does not matter what it's called, and there is no need for shame about any of it. The brain needs help sometimes just like any other part of our body. We can get out of balance for any number of reasons. Good you are aware of it and recognize the need for some help. Best to you.
 

Tug

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There are chemical imbalances in your brain that contribute to behaviors that need to be brought back into balance so that you have a good quality of life.
Yup, it's a matter of biochemistry, hormones, genetic & environmental factors.
I have clinical depression. It's hereditary and part of another Hormonal issue. I also deal with type II diabetes, part of the hormonal hogwash ;) . Ignore the stigma attached to 'mental' disorders; they are just like diabetes, only different hormonal coctails. Get thee to a Professional young Lady! :p
 

camel24j

New member
if i want to be honest with my self i feel i deserve suffering. sounds bad i know and then some times i like being miserable it makes me feel normal. i am doing better getting a little more sleep and eating a bit more to. as for getting help i just cant get myself to do it i know that's the only advice anyone can really give but i think i post because it makes me feel better to tell and on here everyone really listens.


if i can ever get myself some help i still dont know if i could open up. i have been to many therapist the first was when i was 5yrs old. no one has ever spotted my behavior
 

Angela

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Jennifer,
I agree with you that we listen and maybe that does make you feel better but none of us are professional people who can seriously help you and like the others have said, you need to get medical help and the sooner you make that first move the better you will feel about yourself.

We all worry about you and your animals and really our hands are tied in that we are here, but we can't professionally help, can we?
 
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