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[Murphy]

Jennifer,
I agree with you that we listen and maybe that does make you feel better but none of us are professional people who can seriously help you and like the others have said, you need to get medical help and the sooner you make that first move the better you will feel about yourself.

We all worry about you and your animals and really our hands are tied in that we are here, but we can't professionally help, can we?

Jen.. this is good advise..
It is crucial that you seek expert medical attention.
Right away... Can you get someone to go with you to an initial assessment?? Like Angela said.. we can listen.. we can't help.. not in the long term which is what you need. C'mon girl ..

 

[Cascadians]

Hi Jennifer Your love of reading can help you right now. Look up various disorders and see what fits.

After a successful productive life, I suddenly got very ill after severe stress. Started having odd symptoms. By researching and wondering, "What the hell is wrong with me?" I discovered I have autism. It explained so much but was masked most of my life by busy successful work.

I looked it up and all related disorders on Wikipedia and then read the textbook criteria. I took online tests, and then found a forum of like souls.

Even though I have always worked in western medicine, that system has failed me for help with autism. But plenty of help is online. On the autistic spectrum I have Aspergers, and that comes with "special interests" which are extreme focused pleasurable fixations taken to the nth degree with great intensity. This can sometimes be misdiagnosed as OCD in an Aspie by a shrink that is not well versed in the conditions.

So to figure out what is going on with yourself, read and take notes: what fits, what does not fit.

Awareness is the 1st step in winning the battle! Just recognizing that something is interfering with your well-being and happiness is a giant step.

Good luck and keep us updated!

 

[Cascadians]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive-compulsive_disorder
Explanation of Obsessive-compulsive disorder

Accurate knowledge is power!

 

[victoria1140]

even if you feel you cant talk to someone or find it diffiult to open up then see if there is a self help group somewhere, you dont always have to talk, just go and if you are eady then talk.sometimes talking to people with the same problem helps

 

[Tricia2]

if i want to be honest with my self i feel i deserve suffering. sounds bad i know and then some times i like being miserable it makes me feel normal. i am doing better getting a little more sleep and eating a bit more to. as for getting help i just cant get myself to do it i know that's the only advice anyone can really give but i think i post because it makes me feel better to tell and on here everyone really listens.


if i can ever get myself some help i still dont know if i could open up. i have been to many therapist the first was when i was 5yrs old. no one has ever spotted my behavior

So what you are saying is that you like being miserable because you get attention. That splash of cold water in your face may be painful but your posting is rather provacative. I suspect that you have grown so accustomed to your identity as a 'bad girl' that the threat of having to open up and leave that behind will leave you with no other way to get validation.

Consider this...you don't have to live this way...but if nothing changes..nothing changes.

 

[Tug]

All the symptoms your talking about are typical of depression;
deserving of suffering,
Misery as a hallmark,
Not wanting to get help,
Comfort in wallowing,
Talking and talking about it with others instead of dealing with it because that's safer.

And the deadliest: apathy.

Whether or not you are OCD, have Aspergers, are Bi-Polar, like Tricia said: if nothing changes..nothing changes.

Someone said: "The definition of crazy is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different outcome."

You can go to therapist after therapist, but if it's a biochemical imbalance they're not going to do anything.

You need to see a proffessional schooled in brain chemistry, not behavioural modification... yet.

Good luck.

 

[NewfLove]

I, too, agree With Tricia. We are here to listen and try to help, too. Our helping you is to tell you to get professional help. That's all we can do right now because we are not physically with you to help you any other way.

 

[hawk]

Elmira Psychiatric Center


Elmira,NY14901

(607) 737-4700

A place for people 18 and younger - don't know your age sorry...

http://www.contactsyracuse.org/youth-emergency.shtml

This link will take you to a page that can help you find help!

this is part of their statement

We Want To Help
Mental health problems can be rooted in a physical disorder such as a brain chemical imbalance, or they can be brought on by extremely stressful situations such as divorce, unemployment, loss of a loved one or other traumatic event.

Withdrawal from society, inability to function in normal daily activities and loss of coping skills are the major symptoms of debilitating mental health problems



http://www.stjosephs.org/getpage.php?name=behavioral

 

[drulzelot]

I looked it up and all related disorders on Wikipedia and then read the textbook criteria. I took online tests, and then found a forum of like souls.

Wrong Planet? ; )


Plenty of places exist for finding help, we don't allow mental health issues to go untreated. Regardless of ability to pay. People chose this profession, not for money, but to alleviate suffering.

A psychiatrist is a medical doctor who prescribes medication, a psychologist prescribes behavioral therapy, and some psychologists also specialize in neurobiology and neurochemistry. You can get treatment through a church, or any social services organization. No one here, yourself included, should diagnose you (I wouldn't even if qualified, for the reasons of patient/dr confidentiality and potential lawsuits). There are a number of tests and diagnostic manuals which the public does not have access to, which the professionals use for diagnosis. They are the primary way to get the most accurate diagnosis in order to provide the best and most responsive treatment.

If you want to be helped, you'll seek out help.

 

[Cascadians]

Yep, Wrong Planet The reason I suggest reading is because one is most interested in oneself, knows oneself best and if honest can get a good initial clue.

I have Kaiser HMO and they are rather vehemently adverse to autism, say flat out they don't treat adults, have no experts, don't want to touch it with a 10-foot pole, won't go there. So when my PCP referred me to an "evaluator" he tried every possible trick to "diagnose" me with anything other than autism. Ahem, except every test shows straight definite autism. Also dx autistic when in 4th grade but nobody paid attention to it.

If a person is self-aware it helps avoid the agendas of the less-than-professionals. My partner is a high-powered RN who goes with me to every appt as a witness and advocate, as I do for her. We actually recorded the sessions because the creep's malpractice was so malicious.

So I feel for anybody experiencing difficulty and advise empirically, Know Thyself and to thine own self be true.

My PCP wrote a prescription for a service dog; my Newfie puppy Orka will be here in 6 days!

Jennifer, listen to the good folk here and seek help.

 

[ardeagold]

If you want to be helped, you'll seek out help.

Yep. Unfortunately, Jennifer, nobody can do it for you. It's ALL up to you. You're responsible for your life.

You're the only person who can get you moving in the right direction. Everyone else can support you...but only once you start the process yourself.

 

[KodysGrandma]

Sometime we subconsciously stay with what we know because the unknown is even more frightening. Perhaps you don't seek real help because of that. However, you are obviously a strong person in many ways so your future could be BETTER with change. Think of that as your goal (A BETTER FUTURE) in whatever ways you would like one and then get the help you need to achieve it.

 

[camel24j]

i was looked up in the Elmira phyctic clink for 6 months and it didn't do any good it was the best place i have even been i will admit that it felt more of a home than living with my mom. i think i mite check out st josfh.

my mom came to visit yesterday i looked like a zombie she could tell i was not feeling good so she snapped at me like i was the worst host in the world and was going to leave. i checked my blood pressure and the high was 147 the low was 106 so i took a pill of the old meds witch have side effects i cant handle but i felt a little better and today I'm not as bad. i almost went to the hospital but i dont like doing that unless its really bad. Monday i think I'm going to call my doc.

i do have a bad girl rep but i never wanted it. i dont like feeling bad to get attention normally i hide away from everyone but for some reason being on nn i like to let it out it weird for me i dont under stand it.

 

[ozzysma]

jen having met you and know you are such a caring good person, i wish nothing but happiness for you!!! please think of you, not mom or boyfriend or family, YOU!! dont worry what strangers say or such. we can listen here but we really cant help. if what you have tried before did not help, try something different, if it is help and true health in life you want!! thinking of you!!!!

 

[Henrys Mom]

I do hope you see a doctor today. Your blood pressure is high and you may have more medical problems that can be handled with medication. Then you can deal with your emotional issues as well. Best of luck to you!